Hey Young Pearls,
A few days ago I talked to a old friend or acquaintance whatever you would like to call her. Before y’all start throwing the names please know I’ve always adored her. I’ve always considered her a friend if I had to put a title. We spoke for the first time in years. Decade plus via the phone, and it was easy unforced and pleasant. We reminisced, laughed and even shared.
I learned a lot about myself in that short but broad conversation. One thing that stuck with me is she told me I was “unpredictable”. Hearing this froze me a little bit maybe even shocked me. I thought I was very predictable. I always considered myself a open book, creature of habit. I was either goofy or serious and not very friendly to non-circle members. To know me I had to know you. Point blank period!
She made me think and contemplate my life, the people in my life, and previous and present relationships. Is this still a trait I carry? Most importantly what has it done to my past friendships/relationships? I guess I know I can be rough round edges. Unpredictable seems unstable to me. Emotionally I could say I’m unstable, I love hard...it has no bounds. So I wonder do others see this in me. Do you?
I applaud and respect her for telling me that. I appreciate it. I’ve been wanting to seek therapy for years. No I don’t think I’m crazy. Maybe a little coo-coo but not insane. Yet. Lmaooo. I’ve been wanting to seek help because I need a outlet. I’m a ticking time bomb. I don’t want to tell a family member or friend. They don’t give a damn and if they do, they just to tell it. Ain’t nobody got time for that! Our conversation vouched my already known personal needs.
If you’re like me and don’t have a outlet. You don’t have someone that you ultimately trust to tell things to like thoughts and feelings with. I urge you to seek your outlet that may very well be therapy.
Black people stop thinking it’s crazy to talk to a counselor, therapist or life coach. Y’all talk and run ya mouth all day to probably a legit crazy person. Might as well pay someone to keep your secrets and offer some real life changing help.
See I don’t have a outlet because when I left the squad of 31 flavors my lil click from high school. That really wasn’t our name. I just said that because we was all different shapes sizes and races. When we parted I never allowed myself to get close to people to build friendships. Maybe they fucked me up I don’t know but I seeked old friends and old lovers. X-ing out any potential that didn’t seem familiar enough from my past and totally declining them from my present and future altogether. I have to tell you that is not the move. You can not progress without progression. It’s always forward and never backwards.
If someone is elevating and gravitating towards you welcome them with open arms because it’s hard and even though we want to we can not do it all on our own. I’m just starting to realize this but ultimately owning it.
Later Young Pearl 🖤💜🖤
So for this early morning topic. Drum role please. LOVE! My favorite topic. 😃 😊 We all have people that love us regardless. Whether its bonded by blood or that one inevitable moment or event that only y’all experience. That’s a great love to have that’s ensured by a look a smile or even a presence that relates connection. Sometimes that love is just that. Something you can’t pull even a drop more of it because that love has reached it limit. It’s okay and it’s safe. But as beings we crave deeper love with all the same elements but a deeper bond. Some people believe this void is their crave for love or to be In a relationship. Yes we need intimacy but that void is just a yearning to be understood and wanted regardless of the good bad not worrying about the judgment or being left OPEN. It comes down to trust and loyalty something so many people lack for whatever reasons. Stop looking for love before friends. Stop hiding yourself to be what they love or desire. Stop needing to be loved and just love. Stop. The best way to receive what you desire is to be and live what you deserve. Learn you, be you, love you.
Hey my wild babies,
So how y’all been so far this year? It’s been while, I know tell me something new. I told ya I was workin on me and I still am! Got into some problems but it’s nothing I can’t handle. Besides that I have been working, and y’all gone get this work lol.Nothing will stop me from my purpose. I hope you feel the same.
Mom back on my regular scheduled program and will post once a week again. I can never express how much I appreciate y’all checking for me, I see the numbers 🖤💜🖤. I got a few topics and questions I will and want to answer and give opinions on even though they may be old my view will be fresh.
Talk to you soon. Stay motivated stay open minded and original. Talk to you soon.
Netta B 🥰
Its been a while I know. How have you all been? I suck at keepin task lately. My apologies. I said when I stopped working my job of 3yrs. n change the end of September I wasn’t working (working for anybody again) next day after Christmas I secured a job. Cutting hair again folks.🤦🏾♀️ I know...got another hustle cooking too 🤷🏾♀️. #1 Suspect and Short n Sweet uploads will be available soon ✍🏾👌🏾. Love you all supporters or not reach the stars if not that reach higher! I stepped away from a lot of people end of 2018. I need everyone to understand no love lost just priorities changed. I advise you to do the same. Nobody comes before you besides your higher being. You have to know you really know you before you can ask for more. Because you’ll get it and won’t even recognize it. Moral of the story. I’m working on me and it’s a process.
Love you Pearls
I know you may be disappointed in me 😔. I admit I’m very bad at this blogging. I’m somewhat confused on how I want to do it. Do I talk about me, others, your messages, or everyday topics? I want to do it all, but I don’t always have pen or phone readily available so I forget my thoughts, quotes, ideas it sucks. I say all that to say my bad y’all 😁😄🤗 I will do better.
Okay! So topic at hand. So you vegan now girl? Uhm. Naw I’m not vegan I’m on a or following a Alkaline diet. When I tell people I don’t eat meat they assume I’m vegan and I just roll with it. I doesn’t interest me to elaborate or explain. Anywho my point here today lol. People say it cost to be vegan. Fair but not true.
Me personally attempting to follow a Alkaline diet. There are certain fruits, veggies, spices, etc that you are able to eat. Edibles that are produced naturally with real nutritional value. This list is very minimal but full filling and versatile. Main ingredient being spring water, You would be surprised. On a grocery day I spend roughly 60 for 2-2 1/2 weeks. Lunches dinner homemade breakfast shakes all of that lol. It’s not bad, ex out the wine (my vice), condiments, soda juice, fast food, sugar, all GMO’s you’ll be good. Simple right? Probably not, a lot of that 🤫 I wasn’t heavy on any way. It’s really only when I indulge in my vice 🤔. Anywayz doe try it out y’all it’s not bad really. I’ve maintained weight also, I’m not losing. My skin pretty too 💁🏾♀️ its a lite glow lol frfr. Ladies I don’t bloat like I use to even during that time, tmi sorry fellas. I just want to state benefits and my facts with the truths.
Im not pushing this on anyone just setting my record straight period lol. We are all aware of the good and bad readily available to use as consumers it’s just a matter of when we are done reaping the consequences of it. I just want to last a little bit longer 🤷🏾♀️. I’m not completely clear of my vices but I’m making a effort. I do push that on people 😉
Love y’all talk to y’all soon.
I would like to start a blog if you have any topics, ideas questions throw them to me in the "Whats on your mind" section.