Remember back in the day when you were younger? When playing outside or on the block was cool? So let me set the mood. Its you your cousins couple of friends grouped up scheming right? Bout to bend a corner or do a dumb dare you know damn well will get you hurt (by the adults) LMAOO. So now everyone is looking around for the opps (the adults) before the deed can be done. LMBO memories make me smile. Alot the coast would be clear, but sometimes now...they would be looking dead in yo face, studying you like they know you about to do something you got no business doing. Or maybe the Lord said "What is your child doing right now?"
I say that to say. Do you ever wonder what those adults thought of you back then as they watched you grow? Even what did they let you slide by with? Did the picture they have of you become real? Did it match up or fail. Was the change for the best or the worst?
So back in the day and secretly still to this day I wish I could be a artist. Yes hunty, I wish I could sang. Well this ain’t really a blog but it’s me. Enjoy. 😂😂🙃
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So hanging out with my cousin earlier this month maybe last month, and she says. "Girl you don't want no kids. I'm starting to think you don't want any kids." When I tell y'all cuz broke my heart with that one. Why? Because everybody and they crusty granny know i want kids! lmaooo. Especially some babies. Some fresh out the oven, my favorite. I'm like "Let me hold the baby." "It's a baby in here?" "Let me talk to the baby." I be tryna bond early. So if I know you and you preggo. I'm on yo azzz. lol. Talking all in your stomach. "Hi baby!" "Your so smart." "Your beautiful." "I love you!" Preggo's be too sick of me. I love the kids PERIOD.
So when she said it later that night i wrote this for her and all you other doubters. So just cause she cute, know bachelors, intelligent, wit a hustle. That don't mean anything.
Let me put ya'll onto my mind set. I want a child with someone I want and equally wants me before I start a family I need both parents present. A full functioning family for the child to experience the man and woman role. Real love with everything in between above beyond and below.
I can have kids thats not a problem. I've had proposals on going half on a baby. lmaoo. Nice gesture you feel I can take care of your seed. Cool. But I hate to say it for all the fellas to read. Ya'll prolly not going to think I'm as cool but Marriage is better. I had to say it.
Back to the topic at hand. I love kids. They bright funny smart our future. I want to produce lil cutie pies (twins) when he blesses me.
All I ask is that you not hold it against me. This is me. I'm waiting because I want to, and I'm choosin who I choose. Don't judge me I'm never judging you. OXOX
Later Baby Pearls.
Have you ever loved
my need to show you love
became my own neglect to receive love
I loved you more than I loved myself
i put you before me
i lost me in search of you
i became jealous of my love for you
i became desperate for a love like mine
I would like to start a blog if you have any topics, ideas questions throw them to me in the "Whats on your mind" section.