Let’s talk about death because it’s all around us and to be honest tomorrow is def not promised. Me personally I know people of all different walks and backgrounds. I been a lot of places and bonded with many in my short life span. I know more people that have died or natural freak causes to violence to where I need other folks hands just to count and this started as young as high school. One thing I can say it’s been more friends than my bloodline that I have lost. Another thing I can say but kind of ashamed of saying is I never been to a funeral. I have attended many wakes but never a funeral. Just like when it comes to your faith. I mean how you can follow and grow at your own pace with whomever your higher being is you can do the same with death. People think because you don’t speak on it or show face you don’t care. It’s not true. Your prayers can truly be helping that individual. I’m a introvert a lot of shit drains me. Sometimes I just can’t or won’t give away my energy.
I have lost a lot of people like I said before. But the recent and last was my auntie a yr ago. I believe that she was the one person who knew me and loved me despite everything (all in the air talking 😂😫😝) and she is gone. Her love ran like that for everyone. I believe we were so much alike after spending time with each other after years of not knowing each other. And the thing I hate most is I didn’t get to know she was gone till a week later because I had her schedule wrong. Sometimes I feel it was done purposely. We started off rough two people who couldn’t stand each other but in the end we knew each other from good bad old and present (so many stories shared) She was my one true friend in the form of a auntie. I miss her so much and I’m so angry she can’t be here with me on my journey. She uplifted me in so many ways. She was bitch I’m a bitch but we had a understand as two bitches with big hearts. Nobody and I mean nobody on that side of the family love will ever compare to hers without her I feel outcasted. I hope she watches shields and guides me daily.
I say this to say keep your head up maybe even open up more and really understand what can be someone else perspective they may still hurt from death.
Netta B. 🖤💜🖤
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